Typical Weather Crap

Typical weather crap – the rain is going all around us while we remain high and dry. Just isn’t fair. We are under a severe weather warning with no severe weather to show for it. It is so yucky hot out that my hair was drenched with sweat. Not that I had much planned outdoors anyway. Ran to the store and KFC for lunch – other then that I’ve been surfing the internet to see if there is something I can’t live without.

Have fallen off the comedy wagon this past week. Scary movies are addictive. I was doing pretty well at abstaining from them but then went to Mr Brooks which only served to make me excited about thrillers again. At work they put in The Messenger – a scary movie I didn’t see in the theater and I’ve had to resist temptation to run out to buy it today. It is one what will join my collection soon but no need to go running out to buy it now. In another month it will cost less.

Blockbuster sent me “the Grinch” movie with Jim Carrey. I’ve always found it to be pretty funny so I’ll have to watch it later. For the past five weeks or so I haven’t watched a single movie that they’ve sent – just put them back in the outgoing mail without even leaving the mailboxes. Yes, it is a waste of money I know. But, you are probably thinking, they only send the movies from the list I provided them. Trouble is, they don’t send them in the order I’ve given them so ones come that I’m not in the mood to watch.

Yep, I see only blue skies – so much for the damn rain. I wonder if they make a DVD that is just rainstorms? I have a CD of rainstorms but I think it would help if I could actually see the rain – even if only on the television

All know that the drop merges into the ocean but few know the ocean merges into the drop. — Kabir

Thought for the Day

Finally ending a 40 hr work week. I’m struck by how much I like my job. Weird huh? Yesterday wasn’t a good day – today I had a mom who found her son dead from cardiac arrest so I couldn’t claim today was all that great either, so what made me think I liked my job? I think it stemmed from something that happened in the first couple hours of work today.

One of my coworkers was talking about quitting. She was sick of the clickish way the organization was run…aren’t we all? But I reminded her of all the good we do – the people we save – the people we help through crisis – and how we couldn’t let a few asshole coworkers run a person off from a job they like and are good at.

All the time I was trying to lift her spirits, I think I lifted my own as well. She is well liked by the majority of people and would be sorely missed. I think my speech helped her – I know it helped me.

In times of crisis, when calls come in like the murder/suicide yesterday or the cardiac rest today – if I could remind myself of the list I recited to her – maybe the calls would get to me like they do. I am improving on letting go mentally of the bad calls but they still get to me. When I write a caller is hysterical – those hysterics involve sobbing, pleading with me to make it go away, pleading for me to help them make it through till rescue gets there, and assuring them they aren’t alone. It can be so very emotional draining. I am ultra-sensitive to other people’s pain – especially when it is undeserved and involves the death of a loved one.

There is a new song out on the country network – don’t know the name of it or who sings it as I just heard part of it briefly on the radio (hmmm…maybe it isn’t new?). The guy in it said something about how he had a good life – he gave a few examples on his good life and it was refreshing to hear over the usual themes of most songs. Anyone find out who sings it, write me a comment to let me know please! I was thinking about the song when I went into work yesterday and had to admit, my life is very good and I’m a content with it for the most part. Really, how many people can say that?

You don’t get to choose how you’re going to die. Or when. You can decide how you’re going to live now. –Joan Baez