“You don’t confront your demons and defeat them. You confront them. Then you confront them. Then you confront them even more – every single day.”
That is a quote from the movie “Mind Hunters” which I happen to be watching right now. It is a good movie though it tanked at the theaters. I wonder how many people figured out who the killer was before the end – fewer then usual I bet. It is a good opening into my topic tonight…confronting demons.
Everyone has demons – things that haunt them throughout their lives. Usually about the time I’m sure my demons are finally gone because they have slumbered so long, the make themselves known again. Sounds so dramatic and mysterious doesn’t it?
Really, what is on my mind is more of the conversation I wrote about earlier. My friend brought up my being alone so much and how hard it must be to be so far from my family. It is a good point. When I moved down here I figured I’d visit up North once a year and my son or other family member. It hasn’t happened that way.
This coming November will make three years since I’ve gone up north. Funny because I remember the plane rides like it was yesterday. I should go up more but who has the time or money? Yeah, that sounded lame to my ears as well. My next trip I’d like to stay in a nice hotel with a pool, rent a car and just hang out. Instead my trips are rushed, stay with family and depend on others to get around.
Why don’t they come down to visit me more? My son doesn’t get paid vacation so it is hard for him to come down here very often. I’m hoping he makes it for either Thanksgiving or Christmas this year – preferably the latter.
My sisters don’t come down that often, other then Marge, because a vacation down here is not on their priority lists. That is fine – everyone has their own life to live. Some day soon I’ll get a new car and then will be able to do more traveling around Florida. I’d also go down to see my brother more or at least meet him halfway for lunch more.
Being alone isn’t always lonely but when it is, I have no one to go talk to. I think it is another reason I’m going to have to get involved. Some may think I mean find a boyfriend but honestly, I don’t want one right now. I want to become the best I can be so that when I am ready the relationship will be stronger. My last boyfriend didn’t care at all about who I was – he just didn’t want to be alone. That is not, in my opinion, a good reason to enter into a relationship.
Everything will work out – it always does.
Time is like a river made up of events that happen… as soon as a thing has appeared it is carried away, and another comes in its place… –Marcus Aurelius
