Ugh – I Must Be Tired

What is wrong with me? I just feel like crying and yet when I ask myself “why” I want to cry I can’t think of a single reason.

If someone were to ask me how I was – I’d say pretty content except for this slight feeling of the doldrums as my brother puts it.

When I analyze myself, I’m very good at it, I’d have to admit I miss being around family – that being in Iowa those few days made being isolated down here that much more lonely.

I’d also have to say feeling sick to my stomach every day from my medication isn’t much fun and this eye tearing constantly is getting on my last nerve. Course, maybe it is just hormones.

I know it sounds like I’m a basket case and I can see the worry lines already forming on the faces of my family – but I’m not deeply depressed…just a bit down. Going to work really helped so maybe I just need to get back into a routine, you know?

Review of 30 Days of Night

One of my coworkers informed me there was a lot of gore in the movie so I was pretty much expecting a horrorfest. There wasn’t, in fact, near as much as I thought there’d be which goes again to what a person is use to and personal opinions.

The movie was one of the best vampire flicks I’ve seen in awhile. I liked it better, in many ways, then “Underworld” but of course the themes are different. The vampires are alright looking but they moved around pretty cool. I didn’t care for them not speaking English and they really didn’t explain where they came from. Obviously they had been hiding or living somewhere…but where?

The special effects were good and the movie flowed well – with no down time to explain human relationships or other frivolous crap. We could tell by the dialogue what was happening between the people without the need for long insipid cut-off kissie face scenes. The vampires were in the show from the very first few minutes so that kept the movie flowing – no need to worry about when they’d show up.

The vampires didn’t have some ulterior motive for what they did or have to try to explain it – they were vampires. They drank blood. The only old myth they used in this movie was the sunlight – crosses and God talk had no effect on them. Chopping their heads off worked as well but that is pretty much a given.

Yes, I’d recommend the movie but would once again like to mention that I’m growing rather tired of vampire and werewolf movies. Come on folks, there has to be something more out there.

I would give this movie a “B” to a “B+” for entertainment value.

Everything Matters

Everything matters but also nothing matters – happiness and life happen somewhere in the middle.

Sometimes finding the common ground requires so much energy that you think you don’t have. You’re headed for the summit but the way is steep and you want to rest awhile. Not that rest is bad – we all need to take breathers from the climb.

The danger lies in staying too long on that one ledge. It becomes familiar and you become complacent. Getting to the summit of the mountain of life loses interest and we’re more ready to settle for less than we can be.

For some that ledge might be their middle ground and they are happy there. But if your spirit is restless then you must go on…you must start climbing again…staying on that ledge is not for you.

I think true bliss is knowing when you’ve reached your personal middle ground where everything is perfectly balanced for you. You can look around with deep contentment – your spirit whispers “I have arrived.” You honestly think – to yourself or maybe you shout it to the world – “Life doesn’t get any better then this” (to borrow an old beer commercial’s slogan).

Some people find that bliss early in life and spend the rest of their years happy as clams. For the rest of us, we have to keep climbing and keep looking.

Maybe a Movie

So, you may wonder what I plan to do with my afternoon off. I really don’t know. I’m thinking of going to “30 Days of Night.” I shouldn’t spend the money but I would like to see it and I only have one more day off before it leaves the downtown theater.

I could wait till it comes out on DVD but I’m anxious to see it on the big screen. Now if I had my sister’s huge projection system it wouldn’t matter if I saw it in the theater or not. That system was awesome. I’d love to watch all my movies that way!

Scheduling

So days had me on the schedule but evenings didn’t so I get to go home at 3pm. That is fine with me though it uses up every bit of vcacation time I have left but oh well. I have the holidays coming plus eight months before my next vacation so I can accrue time.

Before bed last night I was looking for pictures of where we are going rustic camping – I finally found some and the area was beautiful. It makes me in a rush to go. I checked my calendar and I’m thinking I’ll take the last two weeks of June – unless I can’t get vacation approved for then. We may have to go the end of May.

I can’t wait – it is going to be so awesome!