Volunteering

Ok – a pet peeve of mine is when someone volunteers to do something and then sits around bemoaning their task. If you don’t want to do something, don’t volunteer…how easy is that? She volunteered to run to Wendy’s for us for lunch.

She is bitching, quite loudly I might add, that there are too many orders and no one else ever wants to go, etc. I often go get food when I’m on my own shift but don’t feel obligated when I work four hours on dayshift eight times a month. They have more people on dayshift then we do nights – does it kill them to alternate people going for food? We alternate on evening shift so no one person is doing it all the time.

Still, the point is that she volunteered and then has to bitch. I know it is to get the attention and compel people to praise and thank her for her generosity. Just makes me want to…

Many Things

There are many things I’m looking forward to when I move back to Iowa:

Going to lunch and a movie with my son. We also go hiking, canoeing and paddleboating sometimes. We love to go on long drives where we can just chat.

Going to movies with my sister and just hanging out. We always have a lot of fun together – even if it is just window shopping.

Rollerblading on the nature trail. I will have to buy new rollerblades though.

Biking all my old bike routes – I will have to buy a new bike though too.

Going for coffee at Java House with my son and his girlfriend. Or going to Panera Bread for coffee with my sister.

Swimming at the indoor pool.

Taking walks in City Park.

Going to the library – the new one is awesome!

Shopping at Coral Ridge Mall

Holidays with family

Winter nights curled up on the couch with a good book and a cup of hot tea. Ideally there would be a fireplace but I’d settle for a nice fleece throw tucked around my feet.

Seeing the trees encased in ice early in the morning. It is so quiet and peaceful out when the snow comes down.

Being able to complain about the cold

Visit Mom’s grave whenever I want to.

I could go on but I’m making myself too homesick and down. I would move tomorrow if I could. Why can’t I be rich?

Daydreaming Again

I’ve been thinking about whether I should get a female dog to keep Baxter company. I bet the puppies would be adorable. Wendy already asked me to give her a puppy if I breed Baxter. Of course, my son wants a Rott and I doubt that combination would work well together.

I have to decide though because otherwise I need to get Baxter fixed. I suppose there are so many unwanted dogs in the world that bringing more in would be irresponsible.

I so badly hope I can get a nice house to rent that has a big fenced in yard. Really would prefer to buy a house but doubt I will ever be able to afford that. I’d probably look in Hills or WL – both are just far enough away to have lower prices.

Someday I’m going to own my dream house. Then I want at least four more dogs – already have their names picked out – Shep, Bones, Jonesy, and Hobo. I’d have one more cat too named Jules.

Ok, I’m turning into the old maid with too many animals. Sad isn’t it?

The Blahs

Around me everyone chatters away with the occasional laugh or giggle. I smile too but it doesn’t reach my eyes – no one seems to notice though. Sometimes I wonder how many of my coworkers feel like I do yet keep smiling anyway.

The trailer for the movie “mist” is showing and I’m thinking that I feel like Thomas Jane when he’s lost in mist so thick he can barely see his hands. The air feels heavy and I’m tired. Feel like I’m in a fog so thick I can’t see where I’m going. Hope there are no cliffs up ahead.

What caused this down swing in my mood? I guess it is jealousy over others being so happy. I never would begrudge someone their happiness – I think we don’t have enough of it in the world. But you know how sometimes you feel kind of moody and someone incessantly sunny keeps telling you how great their life is? You smile because it is expected but secretly you wish you could throttle some despair into them…see how sunny they are then. Sometimes I think I could take great glee in ruining some sunny person’s day – but if I ever try, I feel so guilty and mean.

I believe happiness has a lot to do with your perceptions on your current surroundings. I am not deep in depression – I’m just feeling like there should be things I could do now to prepare for moving in June but there isn’t. I hate waiting.

Top Three Calls of Tonight

Here is a look at what I considered our top three calls this evening. These are real calls and, while I think they are funny, it is a sad commentary on our society.

1. Woman called because there was a problem in her house. It seemed her doors kept slamming and her phone kept having problems. She was convinced her house was haunted. When she called she said the ghost was in the bathroom…I dunno, maybe he had to go.

2. Had a woman call in who said the cows were mooing too loudly in the field across the street from her house. She wanted to know if we could get them to quiet down.

3. There was a disturbance between a man and a couple on horseback. Apparently the man was upset because the horses had poohed on the street and he thought the riders should have to poop scoop. The riders said since the neighborhood was designated as a “equestrian” friendly area – they didn’t have to poop scoop. I guess it got quite heated before the guy gave up. I’d have to agree with him though. We poop scoop our dogs according to city ordinances, why should the horses have free rein?