Monday Night Summary

So here I am again tonight, writing something to be able to get on to post it tomorrow at the library. The cable came today but no, it didn’t work. No big surprise I guess. I should have known it would never work. I’m so tired of dealing with all the crap with this internet – maybe I’m better off not having it.

Today was my first day of trying to go without soda. By 5pm I had a migrane so bad that I couldn’t stand any light whatsoever. I had been drinking tea but still the headache wouldn’t go away. The only soda I had on hand was a sugared soda left over from my son’s visit so I drank that. Don’t know how people can drink sugared soda – it is so sweet. My headache is down to a dull throb but is still there…light still bothers it but not as badly. I have my monitor light down low and only a kitchen 40watt light on.

It is easy to understand my withdrawals when I admit that I drank 2 2-liter bottles of soda day before yesterday. No wonder I am going through withdrawals – yesterday I had only 20 ounces but I was working outside and kept drinking water so I think that helped. I think I best wean myself from it a little slower then cold turkey unless I have good pain killers on hand.

Baxter wants to go outside but I am not ready to be freezing again. I haven’t been warm all day and even now have a blanket wrapped around me. I seriously considered putting on the heat but have talked myself out of it so far. If I can’t get warm after coming back in from his walk then I will turn it on for a bit.

Once again I’d like to articulate that I am not complaining about how cold it is – I’m pleased it is finally cooler after being so hot. It is in the 30’s out tonight after being in the low 40’s all day. Tomorrow is suppose to be in the 60’s and then we start warming up again into the 80’s. The cold would not be a problem if I had proper clothing. Well, I still might now want to go for a long walk in it but I wouldn’t dread it like I do tonight. A warm stocking cap sounds pretty good to me.

Baxter was exhausted after our long walk today. He likes to take the sofa cushion and shake it around – guess he wants something bigger then his squeaky toy now and then. Anyway, he was in mid-shake when he fell asleep. The cushion was still tight in his mouth – it was so cute. I have pictures of him doing the same thing at other times but it never fails to amuse me. I really love the little fart.

Monday – December…Whatever

It is almost noon and the mailman hasn’t come yet to see if the cable I need is in there. Maybe we’ll get some movies from Blockbuster which would be nice since nothing is ever on tv.

Everything was wet and cold when I took Baxter out at 7:15 am this morning. I had on a pullover and was still cold. The little shit wouldn’t go potty so we were out walking around over an hour. He likes the cooler weather because his coat is so thick. I’m not complaining, mind you, I know Iowa is going to be a lot colder – but at least there I will have a coat, hat, mittens and insulated boots to fit the weather. No point buying that stuff down here as you only get to wear it maybe seven days out of the year and then have to store it the rest of the time.

I went back to bed when we got in because I didn’t sleep well last night. Baxter woke me up less then an hour later wanting to go outside again. So I took him to the new park uptown called Payne Park. Wow, it is huge now and the path is very nice. We walked around the place twice – took us 90 minutes because Baxter had to keep stopping to sniff every solar powered lighthouse light we passed. He also tried to take a swim in the lake there but I got him out before he could jump in fully. We walked around a second time for him to dry off.

I am really craving a soda but am drinking water instead. Getting a headache though from withdrawals. But I am trying to be healthier and this is the first step. The next step is eating more veggies and fruit – less junk food.

Last night I had a strange thing happen. I was sound asleep when I suddenly sat up and said “echoes of mercy, whispers of love” – no idea why or what I was dreaming about. The phrase is from the hymn “Blessed Assurance.” I’ve been thinking about it all morning wondering why that phrase stuck in my head – trying to figure out if there is some meaning in there that my subconscious was trying to get through to my conscience. Kind of freaked me out.

I am very sore today from all the stuff I did yesterday. Somehow bruised and scratched my right wrist so now each time I bump it, it hurts. Sometimes I’m just a walking disaster. LOL.