The Pain of Loss

Today’s post is about loss. Loss can be a strange force because sometimes a person feels an acute loss for something they only had a brief second. Or maybe they find out they lost it before they even knew for certain that they had it. But now that you know, there is a deep pain in your heart.

There is nothing you can do to change what happened and there is no one to blame – these things just happen sometimes.

I try to be reassuring, try to tell them that it will work out, that they will get another chance. But they both are very sad – much more so then they ever thought they’d be. I’m sad for them too but also for myself. The “what if’s” kaleidoscope through our brains along with the “what happens now?”

One thing I do know is I shouldn’t be here in Florida when they are going through this. I should be there to hand out hugs and dry tears. I need to move home – that is all there is to it.

Hate Being Sick!

Well, it is almost midnight and I’m thinking about bed again. I slept away the entire day – not even getting up till 5pm other then walking Baxter first thing this morning. What a migraine! It is easing up some because I’ve spent the entire day with the blinds pulled and no lights on. Every time I moved around I got very dizzy so figured it was best just to stay in bed. Hated, absolutely hated, calling in sick but I really couldn’t function at all.

Poor Baxter – I got home Friday night and didn’t have the energy to walk him and then this morning he got a very short walk because I felt so damn ill. Tonight’s walk wasn’t any better – I felt weak and unable to go very far before needing to sit down. Feel like something is in my lungs – hope I’m not getting bronchitis.

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