What is the answer?

I heard someone say today that there are no such things as angels. Life is one big mess and we just wade through it the best we can. There is no God, no human value, no such thing as sin.

I suppose they would equate angels right up there with mermaids – fictional creatures who someone made up so long ago that their story became legends.

Yes, that person could be right – maybe there is nothing else at all. Maybe we are here today, gone tomorrow with nothing to show for our passing but the dust that once was our existence.

I find this rather a troubling thought. I don’t know what is out there – God, the Universe or just plain science – but I do know that it is sad to think we leave nothing behind of ourselves. It is disheartening knowing we have nothing to look forward to after death. It seems like there should be something more.

What a busy day!

I have gotten so much accomplished today! The house is starting to look empty because furniture keeps going out to the curb – none of it lasts more then 30 minutes before it is snatched up by passerby’s.

Took Baxter on his nice long walk that we had to cut a little short because the park attendant forgot to open the bathrooms before they left to go on to other parks. When I called, they said it would be about 90 minutes before they got back so we had to go. Baxter might be able to discreetly pee in the grass but they frown when humans do it.

The weather is awesome – low 70’s. Not much of a breeze though so not as gorgeous as yesterday…not as fun either now that I think about it. But still productive!

Ran errands and have been home since. I can’t believe how much paper stuff I have accumulated over the years! It has just been amazing.

Tried to make an apt for Baxter to be groomed but they need a copy of his rabies information from his vet – since Baxter was given to me and his paperwork wasn’t, I will have to take him to a vet for another rabies shot before they will groom him. Sounds like something I’ll wait to do in Iowa.

The old fart next door kept watching me all afternoon. The guy gives me the creeps! He stood there sipping his mixed drink watching as I lugged stuff out – no offer to help which I wouldn’t have taken anyway because the last place I want him is in my condo. He always asks if I got laid recently. Today I said “yes” and he was so flabbergasted he didn’t know what to say. I’m sure he was trying to remember if he’d seen any men hanging out around my house lately. I always tell him it’s none of his business but damn, that doesn’t seem to stop him from asking all the time anyway. Figured a change in answer might shut him up. Imagine he’ll be asking the neighbors who I’ve been sleeping with. The nosy old codger.

It is raining now which is not a good thing considering I have furniture at the curb but guess the garbage truck will pickup whatever gets rain damaged. Well, the mailman just came – have to go see if the new battery is in for my digital camera.

Workout Burn

Well, it is 3 am and I made it through another workout. Have to say, I love feeling my muscles work. My only complaint is my neck muscle – I need a neck massage when I’m done. There has to be a way to minimilize the impact on it.

Time for bed. I’m rather tired now but not tired enough to sleep. Imagine I’ll drift off soon enough. What a gorgeous and fun day! Tomorrow is suppose to be as beautiful outside…I wonder if it will be as fun?

Have a lot to do tomorrow!

Let’s Not Fight It…

My body says it is time to go to the gym – my eyes say it is time to go to bed. Of course the body wins so I’m off to the gym at 1:20 am. Am I nuts? Probably.

I have a lot of things on my mind so I know I won’t drift off to slumberland anytime soon. Might as well go work off the excess energy at the gym. Hope there is no one there – don’t want to share the equipment. Can get my workout done faster if I’m the only one there.

Be safe people and remember, its a jungle out there.

Coming together

Ok, get your mind out of the gutter.

It has started coming together. I bought my sister’s plane ticket today – she is flying down the 8th of March and then we leave to drive up on the 12th. We should be in Iowa by March 15th…I’ll be home on my birthday!! I am so excited!

I’m hoping one day on the way up we can take a breather and maybe do some hiking in Tennessee. Will have to see how things work out but we’ve both been hiking in TN before and loved it. Maybe we’ll just hit Rock City in Chattanooga – I haven’t been there for awhile.

I am getting rid of every piece of furniture…I probably mentioned that before…but want to keep pictures, electronics, etc. Part of it I will ship but part of it will have to make the drive up with me. We’ll have four days to get Marge use to driving a stick. I bet she gets comfortable with it in the first day.

Really would like to have a place up there already rented to send my stuff too. I will have to get an air mattress to sleep on I guess since my bed is staying here. Everything, actually, will have to be replaced but I don’t care, I’m ready for something different anyway.

I’m just so thrilled that her ticket is bought. It is one like the gun at the start of a race – until it goes off, no one gets to go. Now that we have her ticket, the gun can go off and I can move forward with gusto. Thursday, when I go into work, I can give them my official letter of resignation…yippee!

Yes, I’m a little apprehensive about a lot of things yet but the first hurdle is jumped.

What counts is always the present moment. –Marlene A. Schiwy