Men

Why are all the men I’m attracted to already taken? Hardly seems fair. It takes so many factors to actually induce attraction on my part…so few men even get halfway there.

There is a man that I met a few days ago that makes the butterflies flutter in my chest. He is my age, my height, funny, sweet, thoughtful and has lovely eyes. I’ve only seen him smile a few times but every time it makes my heart set up a few beats. When his eyes meet mine, I have to look away for fear he’ll detect what I’m thinking and feeling.

So what’s the problem? Two things - he is married which, of course, kills it right there. He doesn’t wear a wedding ring but I made a few discrete inquiries. He has a 12 yr old son and has been married for over that many years.

Secondly, I work with him which violates a major life policy of mine not to become involved with anyone I work with. It is just too messy with too many complications.

Ok, thirdly, if that is even a word…he doesn’t know I exist so really no point in even thinking about him. Personally, the last one isn’t too big of a factor which is why I said “two” things…I could always make him notice me if he was available to do so.

There is a bit of electricity to the air when he is in the room so maybe he has noticed me. I know the last time I felt that way for a guy that I worked with, one of my other coworkers said she thought she could feel sparks between him and I when we were in the same room. We both denied it but admitted privately that it was true. He was available but we didn’t act on it because it violated the whole coworker policy thing…and I was his supervisor so that was just an added complication.

So there you have it - my sad story of unrequited lust. {sigh}