Dubious

On my stats I see that someone found my site by actually searching for my page by name.  While it is great that people want to read my blog and are even going into my archives, it makes me wonder if people I work with are looking at it? For some reason, that idea doesn’t thrill me.

I know there have been a few times when a Lt came in to give me a break when I wasn’t ready for one and ended up leaving the page downsized on my screen.  However, I don’t believe any of them read anything because I don’t think they would know how to navigate the site enough to get it back to where I left it. 

When I worked at Sarasota, a few coworkers found my website.  When I know people I know are reading what I write, I feel like I can’t be candid or vent because they might read it.  At one point, I considered starting a new blog but whose to say they wouldn’t find that one too?

My blog is for my thoughts, my feelings at the time I write, and my hopes/dreams.  Some people don’t understand that so they take what I write too personally.  I don’t want that to happen again here in Iowa City.

Here It Is

Well, here it is, Saturday.  Most people are happy it is the weekend – for me it means work.  I don’t really dread it that much – though I do some.  Probably one of the biggest reasons is that my sleep pattern is once again disrupted.  It means four days at least of not getting enough sleep between shifts – I hate it.  Hate feeling exhausted.  I’m still looking for a new job but so far haven’t had any luck.

At least the Iowa game is at Indiana so I don’t have to worry as much about the partying downtown.  Don’t get me wrong, there will be plenty of it but hopefully not so much that I can’t handle it with ease.

I am a tad bit disappointed that summer is gone and I didn’t get out to the lake even once.  Walked the reservoir trail only once and have only been to Ryerson Woods a couple of times.  Yes, I’ve been ill and told not to physically exert myself until my iron level is back up but still, I was looking forward to doing stuff this year. 

On the upside, I’ve been feeling better lately.  Walked the dogs over a mile earlier and might have gone farther but we were being followed by Johos who wanted to talk to us about the end of the world.  I was polite the first time they approached me – told them I wasn’t interested.  The second time they caught up to me, I was still polite but asked them to leave me alone.  They were catching up a third time when an elderly lady came along so they paused to talk to her.  I got way ahead of them so I guess they gave up.  It was one of the guys I knew when I studied before so that is probably why he was more aggressive but it still irritated me royally.

I had planned on going to Parkview when I returned to Iowa City.  I liked that church because I could go, sing, listen in and leave with no one bothering me more than to say “hi.”   People offer up a friendly greeting and then leave me to take what I want from the service.  Now that their building was flooded this year, I don’t know if they will be back or not at the same site.

Damn, the day is flying by so fast.  The Hawkeyes are ahead against Indiana 24-9.  Oops, they just made another touchdown so it is 31-9 now.  Guess that means I can quit watching as it is unlikely Indiana can bounce back that much to win.

Thoughts

I have been forcing myself to write on a work of fiction tonight and while I’ve produced a few pages, none of it is good.  Writing when not inspired truly is a difficult task but I’ve read where a writer should write everyday so I tried.  The pages aren’t really that bad – they will need a lot of touchup though once they are in the computer. 

Sometimes I believe that the story is forced if it isn’t the story I should be working on.  I have a few stories going right now so maybe if I picked a different one it would flow better but I wanted to get this one going.

It is getting chilly out.  I took the dogs out for a walk a bit ago – my shorts and t-shirt weren’t enough to keep me from shivering.  The dogs enjoyed it though so it served it’s purpose.  I was amazed at how busy the bar was that we walk by.  Don’t think it has ever been this busy.

Right now it is after 2am so the bar is closing down for the night and the NL officer’s have their final shot at getting some OWI’s.  They were parked in the parking lot behind the bar so figured they were just biding their time.  This time tomorrow night, I will be at work probably very busy from the same thing.  I wonder if there is a game this weekend and, if so, if it is here or away.

Thought about starting a new book now that I’ve put away my writing but I’m afraid if I do, I won’t get to bed till 8 or 9 am since it usually takes me about 6 hours to read one -depending, of course, on how thick the book is. 

Well, guess I’ll get a few things done before I go to bed.  Hope everyone has a great weekend!