Wasn’t Irritated

Took a nap though I had no intention of falling asleep when I sat down.  Felt fine when I woke up – not irritated or anything, just hungry.  Am a little irritated now though as Baxter decided to chew on one of my couch pillows when he knows he isn’t suppose to do that.  When he met my glance he jumped down and ran under the loveseat because he knew he was doing something bad.  Ugh. 

Had two bad dreams.  The first was that I was on the phone with Michael King & I was trying to pursuade him to let Denise go but he wouldn’t listen to me.  I was getting aggitated and upset because I knew he was going to kill her and was trying so hard to talk him out of it – including telling him we’d “forget the whole thing” if he dropped her off at the nearest street corner.  I woke up when I heard her screaming.

The second one I was caught in some sort of underground facility with some other people and we were searching for an Alien like creature who was slowly killing us all off.  I was trying to save everyone but I couldn’t.  The Alien kept coming after us and we couldn’t find a way out of the place.  I woke up when I was stuck in the same room and the Alien was advancing on me – woke with rather a start.

I hate bad dreams – hate when that feeling of helpless hopelessness invades my rest and restoring time because I wake up feeling worse than when I fell asleep.  It is hard enough feeling that way sometimes during the day – I don’t need it in my dreams too.  Don’t misunderstand – I don’t feel helpless hopelessness when it comes to life – it comes with being a 911 operator.  It comes from being powerless to help someone who calls on the phone begging for help or when someone jumps off a parking ramp or overdoses…even though there was nothing you could have done to prevent either.  

Since moving to my new job, these kinds of calls have been few to practically nonexistent which I like because, obviously, I’m already haunted enough by past calls from Sarasota. 

Anyway, I’m going to go for a walk with the dogs.  It is 2am and 63 degrees out which makes a walk sound pretty nice.  We won’t go far though cuz there is no moon out to shed even a little light on our pathway.