I know how much you all hate hearing me complain or talk about being depressed – but that is what this post is about. Feel free to skip it – I won’t know and won’t mind.
It is 7:56 am and I am so very tired I can hardly keep my eyes open. I plan on going to bed here very shortly. As we all know, when I am tired I also get very down – today is no exception. I am so down I feel like it is hard to breathe. I would cry but there is no sense to it because I’m not really sure what I would be crying about. I couldn’t tell you why I am down or anything else for that matter – just that I am.
I’m not just down, I am angry as well yet again, I don’t know at what. I suppose the fucking weather is as good as anything to be angry about – will the sun ever shine again? I can’t take all this rain and no sunshine. In FL we had rain everyday during rainy season but it only lasted a couple hours and then the sun would come out. This constant raining and overcast skies is killing me.
OK, I ate an egg so am feeling a little bit better – didn’t realize how hungry I was until it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was thinking I should go to the gym and workout but I don’t think I will before bedtime – I’m too tired.
Had plans for my days off – nothing earth-shaking but a kind of “to do” list. I thought our monthly meeting was going to be cancelled but found out today that it isn’t so will be doing that in the afternoon tomorrow. Have I mentioned how tired I am?