Now that I am done and am reading what I wrote, I am discouraged and feel like a fake. Half the stuff is going to have to be rewritten or revamped anyway – not to mention the misspelled words, grammar issues and what not. I may have made 50,000 but it is not quality work.
Strange that I feel rather down now that it is over – exhausted but down too. I had more days of creative free-flow than on any other NaNo writing experience to date but the minute I became a “winner” it all dried up – my muse deserted me and left me crying in the shadows.
I have no desire to write another word on this story. Seriously – some people are already thinking about the rewrite and sending it to editors but I don’t even want to look at it again.
It has made me want to work on a couple other stories I have going though so maybe that will be a good thing – maybe my muse isn’t gone but is merely taking a nap.
A person would think I’d be more excited about this accomplishment but I’m not – I’m just exhausted.